I'm not forced to do anything when it comes to Merrick. I choose to do it, I want to do it, because I care for him.

[A slight pause, as he reigns his emotions in.] But ever since I realized.. all of this... I've always wondered if that's what drives me to do it, more than anything else.

And the thought that anyone would pretend to be there for him while secretly harboring an agenda sickens me.