That seems to be an Inquisitor trait, not a personal one. I'd not worry to much over it.
[ She doesn't judge him, really. Dorian is easy to love and easy to cherish and she thinks of a sending crystal, of warm magic under her fingertips, of knowing that Dorian was far, far away but always so close. She knows that when she goes back she'll be able to touch the crystal and speak to him - but is it the same for Cyril? Does he have the same friendship, or is it clouded by affection?
His question brings her out of her thoughts and she hesitates, knowing where the conversation is turning. Cyril is well aware of where her affection lies, and her hands clench at her sides as she breathes in, then out.
It is hard, but perhaps it ought to be spoken about. Perhaps she should put to voice the things that had been haunting her for weeks. ]
I do not know how to handle it. Some days I wake up and I want to hunt him down and kill him for what he plans to do, and others I want nothing more than to wake up with him beside me. I know what I must do as an Inquisitor, but... If I fail to bring him back I will be losing my heart.
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[ She doesn't judge him, really. Dorian is easy to love and easy to cherish and she thinks of a sending crystal, of warm magic under her fingertips, of knowing that Dorian was far, far away but always so close. She knows that when she goes back she'll be able to touch the crystal and speak to him - but is it the same for Cyril? Does he have the same friendship, or is it clouded by affection?
His question brings her out of her thoughts and she hesitates, knowing where the conversation is turning. Cyril is well aware of where her affection lies, and her hands clench at her sides as she breathes in, then out.
It is hard, but perhaps it ought to be spoken about. Perhaps she should put to voice the things that had been haunting her for weeks. ]
I do not know how to handle it. Some days I wake up and I want to hunt him down and kill him for what he plans to do, and others I want nothing more than to wake up with him beside me. I know what I must do as an Inquisitor, but... If I fail to bring him back I will be losing my heart.