[For a moment, Cyril feels a bit like he's been punched. He doesn't like having such an intense emotional reaction to missing someone, so he tries to ignore it.]
Ah. Sam's not in Kirkwall anymore, Sorrel. He won't be again for some time.
[And so he is, as soon as he can be-- and the first thing he does is nothing more complicated than taking whatever Cyril has in his hands, putting it aside, and scooping him into a hug, tight and grounding.]
Hm-mm. It's not the first time someone I cared for was reassigned. At least I can still talk to him on the crystal. And there might be some times I can go join him.
[He offers Sorrel a small smile.]
Though, I'm not sure I can sleep in this house much longer. I want to make sure everything is protected for leaving it long periods of time.
[This is how your voice sounds, Cyril. If your voice were pitched a couple of octaves higher, for some reason. And had the accent played up. Just so you know.]
And then I'd tell you about all the sex I've been having. Come on, Cyril, I congratulate you [Faux-whining tone included] is what I'd say.
Yeah, for a while now, actually. It's been-- I don't even know.
[He laughs at the congratulations, and shoves another load into another box, to emphasize his own joy.]
You know I... I think maybe it'll be alright, with him. When I went back with the clan, when I left, we talked about what might happen and I tried to tell him that... That I got it, that if he wanted to see someone else, while I was gone... [Sorrel laughs, and shakes his head, then looks up at Cyril with the most ridiculous, lopsided smile.] You know what he did?
I wouldn't call it stupid. I used to think about that all of the time. [Cyril replies gently.]
But you were your mother's son, and I was infatuated with Merrick. I knew I could never give you the attention and focus you deserved. I... [He pauses, trying to word this carefully.]
No, not... [He reconsiders this question too] Why would she-- no, nevermind, I can already see it happening.
[Cyril would see someone and wander off and be... himself, just as he is, beautiful and bright, and sometimes just utterly feckless. And then Sorrel, or the version of Sorrel in his mind's eye would... would feel sort of the way the real Sorrel had felt when trying to reconcile with the reality of what Adasse seeing other people might be like.]
Merrick, though? [Then, in a tone probably more appropriate to scolding a cat who's jumped on a table she isn't allowed up on, rather than the idea of lusting after one's own sibling:]Cyril.
[Cyril blinks, because he had honestly thought that the whole Clan had realized his feelings towards Merrick weren't exactly brotherly. He had always assumed it some unspoken secret.
Putting words to the feelings had been one of the things that had finally helped him move past them.]
Yes. I know. It's all very scandalous and likely one of the many reasons I have so many hang-ups when it comes to love, but I've been working through those issues.
[He offers Sorrel a half smile at that.] Trust me, my friend, you did not want a taste of the mess I was when I was with the Clan.
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Date: 2018-06-14 03:55 am (UTC)Ah. Sam's not in Kirkwall anymore, Sorrel. He won't be again for some time.
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Date: 2018-06-14 04:00 am (UTC)[Creators, he knows how that feels.]
I'll be right over.
[And so he is, as soon as he can be-- and the first thing he does is nothing more complicated than taking whatever Cyril has in his hands, putting it aside, and scooping him into a hug, tight and grounding.]
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Date: 2018-06-14 04:14 am (UTC)He lets himself enjoy it too, because physical comfort is almost always nice.]
Hello to you too.
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Date: 2018-06-14 11:22 am (UTC)[Ah, the nervous laugh. He'll... He'll just be stepping back now. Ahem. Sorry about that.]
Are you alright?
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Date: 2018-06-14 03:44 pm (UTC)[He offers Sorrel a small smile.]
Though, I'm not sure I can sleep in this house much longer. I want to make sure everything is protected for leaving it long periods of time.
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Date: 2018-06-14 05:30 pm (UTC)[He'd contacted Cyril for a reason, but it seems almost cruel now-- laughable as that might be, ordinarily. But he can at least lend a hand.]
I mean, I'm already here and all.
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Date: 2018-06-14 05:32 pm (UTC)[He gestures to let Sorrel join him.]
You can tell me what you wanted to tell me while we work.
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Date: 2018-06-14 05:38 pm (UTC)[He gestures vaguely, then lifts a handy stack of books into a waiting box, as Cyril is doing.]
...Mean? You know?
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Date: 2018-06-14 05:40 pm (UTC)Are you kidding? That will probably cheer me up! Brag away.
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Date: 2018-06-14 05:48 pm (UTC)[Don't give him that face, geez. He gives. And clears his throat a little, for theatrics.]
Fine. I had a whole... stupid speech planned out. I'd say, Cyril, you ought to congratulate me you know and then you'd say...
[C'mon, play along, Cyril.]
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Date: 2018-06-14 05:54 pm (UTC)Congratulations?
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Date: 2018-06-14 06:04 pm (UTC)[This is how your voice sounds, Cyril. If your voice were pitched a couple of octaves higher, for some reason. And had the accent played up. Just so you know.]
And then I'd tell you about all the sex I've been having. Come on, Cyril, I congratulate you [Faux-whining tone included] is what I'd say.
...and then you say "Congratulations".
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Date: 2018-06-14 08:21 pm (UTC)You and Adasse huh? I'm so happy for you. You deserve to have some good fun.
Also, Congratulations.
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Date: 2018-06-14 08:30 pm (UTC)[He laughs at the congratulations, and shoves another load into another box, to emphasize his own joy.]
You know I... I think maybe it'll be alright, with him. When I went back with the clan, when I left, we talked about what might happen and I tried to tell him that... That I got it, that if he wanted to see someone else, while I was gone... [Sorrel laughs, and shakes his head, then looks up at Cyril with the most ridiculous, lopsided smile.] You know what he did?
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Date: 2018-06-14 08:42 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-06-15 02:11 am (UTC)[Sorrel meant for that to come out much stronger, but despite himself the goofy, soft smile is turning everything... mushy.]
Anyways, I've never done this before, so I have no idea how good I've been, but I haven't exactly heard any complaining, so.
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Date: 2018-06-17 05:00 am (UTC)And I'm sure Adasse wouldn't mind teaching you anything you wanted to know.
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Date: 2018-06-18 05:27 am (UTC)[Adasse has indeed been... quite attentive. Quite attentive indeed.]
Cyril, did you ever-- [Sorrel stops himself] No, nevermind, it's stupid. Tell me where you're staying, if not here.
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Date: 2018-06-18 05:29 am (UTC)I'll probably go back to the Gallows for now...
And did I what? You know you can ask me anything. I won't be embarrassed.
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Date: 2018-06-18 11:12 pm (UTC)[And, almost as soon as he says it, embarrassment ebbs in and he punctuates it with a little laugh.]
See? That's what I'll call a stupid question.
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Date: 2018-06-18 11:15 pm (UTC)But you were your mother's son, and I was infatuated with Merrick. I knew I could never give you the attention and focus you deserved. I... [He pauses, trying to word this carefully.]
I didn't want to break your heart.
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Date: 2018-06-21 03:00 am (UTC)What?
[forget dignity, that definitely came out as a squeak]
What? [He pauses for a moment to think about it for a few heartbeats longer] No-- What? Really?
I... D- Why?
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Date: 2018-06-21 03:01 am (UTC)Why was I worried about breaking your heart? For many reasons, though about one through seven are all Beleth.
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Date: 2018-06-21 03:17 am (UTC)[Cyril would see someone and wander off and be... himself, just as he is, beautiful and bright, and sometimes just utterly feckless. And then Sorrel, or the version of Sorrel in his mind's eye would... would feel sort of the way the real Sorrel had felt when trying to reconcile with the reality of what Adasse seeing other people might be like.]
Merrick, though? [Then, in a tone probably more appropriate to scolding a cat who's jumped on a table she isn't allowed up on, rather than the idea of lusting after one's own sibling:]Cyril.
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Date: 2018-06-21 03:23 am (UTC)Putting words to the feelings had been one of the things that had finally helped him move past them.]
Yes. I know. It's all very scandalous and likely one of the many reasons I have so many hang-ups when it comes to love, but I've been working through those issues.
[He offers Sorrel a half smile at that.] Trust me, my friend, you did not want a taste of the mess I was when I was with the Clan.
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