Yes, that's accurate. [Cyril replies with a smile, but he doesn't go into detail. If Kolivan wants a conversation that isn't focused on that, he will happily provide it.]
All of the events happened, just not the way Varric tells it. He has to get entertainment value and most of the time we were scared, fighting an ancient enemy, and surviving based on planning and respect. Respect for The Game, for the elven rituals, for the Dagna's skills, for the will of the Gray Wardens... All of them had an important hand in eventually taking down Corypheus.
Oh, well. You don't have to worry about Bull. In my world, our relationship was over. In this one, he does not know me.
[It had stung, of course, because he had been so used to being about to rely on Bull and this one thought of him as a stranger, but he had mostly moved past it.]
[He looks down at him. Some part of him has come to accept that what is taking place with Cyril is...real. That he enjoys it, opening himself up to another again. Particularly one who has been so patient with him for several months now.
He studies him another moment before looking ahead. There is a part of him that feels better knowing that Cyril doesn't intend to continue to pursue this other relationship. Perhaps he has been considering one with this Elf after all. Strange, he hasn't really considered that in a long time. He's been so used to closing himself off, not letting others in.
For a period of time, Kolivan is quiet, simply walking with Cyril at his side. The book had been rather enlightening, especially after what Cyril had already told him. He actually feels closer to him now, perhaps more so than he does anyone other than Ulaz and Krolia.
Kolivan pauses.]
Do you wish to have a bond with me that goes beyond that of something entirely physical, Cyril?
[Oh boy, that question feels so loaded. He feels a weird grip on panic his throat that he swallows down and tries to ignore.
It isn't fair to Kolivan to make this purely about his body. In the months they have gotten to know each other, Cyril realizes that he could be so happy with this man.
If he'd only allow himself to take that step. And, of course, if Kolivan agreed.]
I do. [He finally says, though he looks away for a moment.] Our friendship has given me hope that I thought I had lost, Kolivan. I don't know what I would have done if you hadn't shown up here.
[He's aware that the question he's asked isn't an easy one for Cyril. Honestly, he's done that intentionally. Right now he needs to hear just how serious he is about these feelings of his. If he would only desire him physically or if it would be more than that. The difference between those is very important. Especially to Kolivan.
When he gets his answer, he quietly contemplates. He does think about Cyril often now. And he actually feels relaxed with him. It's a pleasant sensation he hasn't experienced in a very, very long time.
So, he makes his decision.]
I would have you be mine. I believe the term that would be the most accurate to this would be "lovers". Though I doubt I will have to ask, it's appropriate to do so. Will you enter this relationship with me? All of you. Not just your body.
[Of all of the things Kolivan might have said, that is not what Cyril is expecting. Honestly, he was expecting that Kolivan would confirm his interest but ask for a bit more time to be sure what that meant.
Hearing 'I would have you be mine' sort of short circuits Cyril for a moment, as he blinks a couple of times to get the image that brings to his mind to calm down.]
Yes. I would like that. From now on then, all of me is yours.
[It has been so long since he's last been in a relationship. Honestly he expected to simply die without ever having another. Yet this feels right. Good.
He nods at his answer before realizing that he suddenly has no more words to say. Everything has been said that he wishes to say. Strange that he should feel like his tongue has knotted in his mouth. After all, he long since outgrew being a juvenile.
So yes. A nod will be Cyril's answer. At least until his brain figures out a response that isn't just "Good."
[This is his first kiss in a very long time. Still, he finds it warm and gentle. A good start for easing back into something he gave up for himself. This will continue to be a slow build but he feels that Cyril will continue to have the patience with him for that.
Honestly Kolivan appreciates it.
When the kiss ends, he lingers down closer to his height, almost hovering there somewhat.]
My skills in this manner of affection are likely to not be what they once were.
[He feels he can do better. But perhaps that is what some of this will be for. Him learning to do this all again.]
[Cyril momentarily seems distracted by touching Kolivan's chest. His attention moves to the way his hand looks there, and he spreads his fingers to test how the muscle feels.
When Kolivan speaks he looks up, and it takes him a moment to process the request.]
Hm? Oh! Yes, of course.
[He pulls back a bit so they can start walking again.]
So, is this what you meant for us to talk about when you contacted me?
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Date: 2019-03-31 04:27 am (UTC)[He has a feeling.]
You are one I can have intelligent conversations with. I would like to have one with you now.
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Date: 2019-03-31 04:34 am (UTC)Did you have a topic in mind?
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Date: 2019-03-31 04:36 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-03-31 04:39 am (UTC)All of the events happened, just not the way Varric tells it. He has to get entertainment value and most of the time we were scared, fighting an ancient enemy, and surviving based on planning and respect. Respect for The Game, for the elven rituals, for the Dagna's skills, for the will of the Gray Wardens... All of them had an important hand in eventually taking down Corypheus.
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Date: 2019-03-31 04:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-03-31 04:45 am (UTC)The other 'based on true events' book that he wrote was Hawke's story - though I don't have that one here, sadly. It was left out of my collection.
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Date: 2019-03-31 04:47 am (UTC)[A pause and then...]
Were the romantic sections truthful? The ones that concern you.
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Date: 2019-03-31 04:49 am (UTC)Yes. They were mostly true. I didn't swoon nearly as much, but he and I enjoyed each other's company for a time.
[Then, after a moment of thought.] There is a version of him here in the Fleet. Have you met him?
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Date: 2019-03-31 04:52 am (UTC)[Based on what Cyril's told him, Kolivan's gathered that the Elf has a TYPE.]
I should make you aware that should you continue to wish an intimate relationship with me that I do not take pleasure in sharing with others.
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Date: 2019-03-31 04:56 am (UTC)[It had stung, of course, because he had been so used to being about to rely on Bull and this one thought of him as a stranger, but he had mostly moved past it.]
Besides, he and Dorian are an item now.
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Date: 2019-03-31 05:03 am (UTC)[He looks down at him. Some part of him has come to accept that what is taking place with Cyril is...real. That he enjoys it, opening himself up to another again. Particularly one who has been so patient with him for several months now.
He studies him another moment before looking ahead. There is a part of him that feels better knowing that Cyril doesn't intend to continue to pursue this other relationship. Perhaps he has been considering one with this Elf after all. Strange, he hasn't really considered that in a long time. He's been so used to closing himself off, not letting others in.
For a period of time, Kolivan is quiet, simply walking with Cyril at his side. The book had been rather enlightening, especially after what Cyril had already told him. He actually feels closer to him now, perhaps more so than he does anyone other than Ulaz and Krolia.
Kolivan pauses.]
Do you wish to have a bond with me that goes beyond that of something entirely physical, Cyril?
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Date: 2019-03-31 05:08 am (UTC)It isn't fair to Kolivan to make this purely about his body. In the months they have gotten to know each other, Cyril realizes that he could be so happy with this man.
If he'd only allow himself to take that step. And, of course, if Kolivan agreed.]
I do. [He finally says, though he looks away for a moment.] Our friendship has given me hope that I thought I had lost, Kolivan. I don't know what I would have done if you hadn't shown up here.
I want whatever you are willing to give me.
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Date: 2019-03-31 05:13 am (UTC)When he gets his answer, he quietly contemplates. He does think about Cyril often now. And he actually feels relaxed with him. It's a pleasant sensation he hasn't experienced in a very, very long time.
So, he makes his decision.]
I would have you be mine. I believe the term that would be the most accurate to this would be "lovers". Though I doubt I will have to ask, it's appropriate to do so. Will you enter this relationship with me? All of you. Not just your body.
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Date: 2019-03-31 05:18 am (UTC)Hearing 'I would have you be mine' sort of short circuits Cyril for a moment, as he blinks a couple of times to get the image that brings to his mind to calm down.]
Yes. I would like that. From now on then, all of me is yours.
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Date: 2019-03-31 05:23 am (UTC)He nods at his answer before realizing that he suddenly has no more words to say. Everything has been said that he wishes to say. Strange that he should feel like his tongue has knotted in his mouth. After all, he long since outgrew being a juvenile.
So yes. A nod will be Cyril's answer. At least until his brain figures out a response that isn't just "Good."
He's happy, Cyril. Really.]
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Date: 2019-03-31 05:24 am (UTC)Hey. Bend down here so I can kiss you.
[That seems like a good start?]
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Date: 2019-03-31 05:26 am (UTC)Reaching out, he touches his face, rather amazed that skin can be so sort, then leans down to put himself well within reach of the tiny figure.]
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Date: 2019-03-31 05:32 am (UTC)It's sweet and warm. He doesn't want to press for too much too soon. He's experimenting with how Kolivan tastes and how he feels about being kissed.]
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Date: 2019-03-31 05:35 am (UTC)Honestly Kolivan appreciates it.
When the kiss ends, he lingers down closer to his height, almost hovering there somewhat.]
My skills in this manner of affection are likely to not be what they once were.
[He feels he can do better. But perhaps that is what some of this will be for. Him learning to do this all again.]
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Date: 2019-03-31 05:39 am (UTC)[Cyril reassures and the back of Kolivan's neck.]
You tell me what you're comfortable doing, and we'll go that far and not a step further.
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Date: 2019-04-02 05:42 am (UTC)[Rising back up will cause those hands to slide to his chest instead. But he finds he doesn't mind them being there. It's...pleasant.]
Will you walk with me further?
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Date: 2019-04-03 02:06 am (UTC)When Kolivan speaks he looks up, and it takes him a moment to process the request.]
Hm? Oh! Yes, of course.
[He pulls back a bit so they can start walking again.]
So, is this what you meant for us to talk about when you contacted me?
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Date: 2019-04-03 04:25 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-04-05 03:12 am (UTC)[Then, after a moment,] I'm glad that I opened up to you.
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